Time watches as the chains grow tighter.

It's been quite a while since I last posted! Hmmm and plenty has happened. The Imperial Beast has officially been conquered, with the last obstacle being largely unexceptional. My days have been filled with dance and more dance, until finally prom came to fruition on 24.11.2009 and we performed the dance that took roughly 5 days to prepare. I guess the performance was alright but messy. Not exactly unexpected since we barely ever practiced with full-length mirrors. It was fun nonetheless!

Preparations for prom after the dance took so long that we only went down when prom was 10-15 minutes away from ending. Heard food was horrid though, so I didn't feel too bad about missing all the food even though that's essentially what I paid $110 for. HAHA. Camwhoring sessions after that were nothing short of fun, although because I don't have a camera I had to jew off everybody else's cameras -.- . Went after-party shortly after thanks to the powerful powers of persuasion of a certain burmese girl. It was relatively un-crowded but towards the end I had some fun dancing with a bunch of crazy high people :). My heels were killing me though; they were comfortable but I guess the height inevitably made it difficult to balance, especially when I was doing my typical high-energy dancing, made possible by the availability of space. MY PHONE DIED T_T

The next day I watched Jennifer's Body, which was, in short, dumb and pointless. Quite scary yes. Gory yes. But it lacks substance, and it kinda seems like a movie that is simply intended to flaunt Megan Fox's supposed hotness. But ahwellll. Later at night I watched My Girlfriend is an Agent, which was definitely better than Jennifer's Body. It was very humorous and the lead male character was plain dumb and hopeless, though he sorta saved the day in the end. The casting crew did well in choosing him to play the role; his face made it easy for him to play the role of a laughable loser. Okay that was a mean comment, but at least he made the movie funny. Haha!

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marks one of the most intense moments
of my life.
All I wanted then
was to dig a hole and bury myself
so no one would ever find me.
The embarrassment was so strong
that nothing in this world
could ever erase this moment
from my bank of memories.
Boldness I was blessed with
and I'm quite grateful that I chose to be honest
with you and with myself
because if I hadn't let it out then
and decided to keep it bottled in me
I think I would've died
of suffocation
and involuntary muteness.

The chains around my heart
grow stronger and tighter by the day
I don't know how much more I can take
before I go insane.
I'm acting all weird
my heart is free
but it believes it isn't
and my body's rejecting things
it never used to mind
and I don't know why.