Like a Virgin. Like a Drug.

A virgin in blogging, obviously. Haha.

Never before has it appealed to me to disseminate my innermost thoughts and feelings for the whole wide world (or more like the world wide web) to feast their eyes upon. Not that it does now, of course. But I guess that a little part of me, who has been trying to bottle up a plethora of emotions, thoughts, and feelings, is beginning to feel overtaxed, and it's fast running out of space. So, since the world wide web has practically limitless memory space, I decided to make use of it and save that little part of me before it kills my entire being. Though of course, I'll make sure that my privacy is retained :)

For those of you who are wondering, the title of this blog literally translates to "The Songs of My Heart", which is exactly what this blog is meant to be. Things that my heart wants to scream out to the world but never had the chance to do so. Thus this blog isn't really meant for entertainment, if that's what you're here for, as it's meant more for me than for you, haha. Though I hope you gain something from reading my entries nonetheless :)

This virgin blogpost somehow coincides with an important dance performance of mine -- I guess I slept too much today so I'm not that sleepy despite the fact that it's kinda 1 AM now. EXCITED MUCH :) Though it's not my first dance performance, it is one that has meant a lot to me, process-wise especially :) I've learnt a lot from the experience and I've made lots of wonderful friends. It's really quite saddening that it's all going to end tonight (though I should actually be rejoicing at the amount of precious hours I'm going to have to mug after this... -_-) but I guess and hope that the friendships will continue beyond tonight until forevermore :):)

Just a few hours ago was my hostel's farewell dinner, which was boring and unappetizing, as expected. How could a 'farewell' be exciting and touchy and whatever when the only person you really know in the entire hostel is your own roommate -.- not that I ever regret not getting to know the rest, since they're not exactly my kind of people, but ahwell. Waste of time. Listened to my iPod for most of the time when I wasn't eating. I'm crazy in love with SHOW IT by DEMARCO and INSOMNIA by CRAIG DAVID. I'm also crazy in love with the choreo I learnt yesterday to SHOW IT :):) it goes so well with the song! Haha. Loving Insomnia for how smooth Craig David's voice is. It's just so bloody addictive. Ahh :)

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me.

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
-ADDICTED by KELLY CLARKSON-