Floating between reality and imagination.

Yesterday was an awesome dayy. Studying was alright, dance was mega fun -- jazz funk was especially MAD! Hahaha it's amazing I didn't get a headache from all that headbangs. But I looove the choreo hahaha. Watched Halloween II afterwards. It was full of shit. Hahaha. It's like some M18 gorefest with disgusting sound effects and countless vulgarities. A highly recommended watch if you feel like staying away from meat for prolonged periods of time for diet purposes, or if you simply want to experience the rare, unorthodox opportunity to laugh during a horror movie. I believe it's more of a gore movie than a horror movie though, haha. It's highly recommended to not watch this if you're seeking a quality movie to pass your precious free time.

Company was wonderful :) had tons of laughters and shared plenty of jokes not to be discussed here, haha. As the day was generally quite rainy throughout, the post-movie early-morning air was very refreshing and cooling, and the occasionally powerful winds kept me comfortable and cool. I never knew that the morning air could be so wonderful. Clearly I don't wake up early very much, haha!

Met a good friend who accompanied me from dawn til noon. Sorry for falling asleep here and there!! Couldn't help it, my eyes felt like they weighed a ton, not surprising after having not been allowed to drop for almost 24 hours. I guess I'm just a weakling who cannot survive without sleep. SIGH. -.-

I'm currently in love with the saddest, most beautiful song I've ever heard in my life. So beautiful it is that it has inspired me to write a poem, a first in my life. =D hahaha.

In this hauntingly beautiful melody,

I eagerly drown myself in the bottomless ocean

ignoring the fishes' pleas to remedy

this burgeoning addiction.

These thought bubbles of my fixation
keep fluctuating between submerging from and drowning

in this sea of imagination.

Am I seeing or am I dreaming?

With each new day

ever since your fateful foray

a new teardrop is born to see

her fellow droplets in the sea

drowning my beloved bubbles deeper and deeper.

Will they ever submerge again, I wonder?

Could they ever fly

and become a permanent cloud in the sky?

As I indulge myself in contemplation,
my own body seems to swim deeper and deeper

into the dark oblivion

addicted to the feeling of being embraced by the water

Will I return to the ground in time?

Before the sea imprisons my being
and makes it impossible to climb

back to the world of the seeing.

Ahwell, there goes the first poem I've ever written in my life. :) Quite happy with the way it turns out, especially because it describes my current sentiments very well as well as my whole life in general, which has been unnaturally replete with unrequited love, as cliche as it sounds. I've either been very unlucky or I'm just unnaturally idealistic =S but yeah, I'm highly prone to all these fixations. Good and bad I suppose, haha!

Today was an incredibly rainy day, with plenty of thunders too O.o it's such a coincidence that today is HALLOWEEN >.< it was so dark and foggy that I couldn't see anything in the near distance, obscured by the dull fog. Lightnings permeate through the fog almost every minute, to be followed by their noisier counterparts shortly after, each one seemingly louder than its predecessor. But as I am writing now, the rain has calmed down considerably :)

I was supposed to attend Danz People's launch party but the rain and the fact that IB is only TWO DAYS AWAY made me reconsider. Even as I am sitting (or more like lying down) at home now, I kind of wonder what would it have been like if I had gone. They must be having fun camwhoring and all :( ahwell, facebook shall enlighten me on that soon enough. That reminds me of the photos taken during the Artist Party two days ago -- I LOOK SO WHITE ITS SCARY -.- I guess it goes with my typical black-and-red color scheme but STILL! Sometimes I wish I were tanner, though I have a feeling that it doesn't really suit me. And being tan would mean that I can't look as goth =S

Okay, I better start reading my chemistry notes, which seem to have begun collecting dust. -.- Aaaand the rain seems to have stopped.

I miss you. I know I shouldn't,

and it doesn't really make sense

but I do.

I want to see you so bad

but I dare not let you know.

'Cause I have a feeling

that it'll just drive you away from me.

Why must you be so cold?

What have I done wrong?

But then again

I have no right to ask these questions

when I was myself

the perpetrator of the exact same crimes

just not to you, I guess.